Clutter

I don’t like clutter.  Most of the people who work with me could back up that statement.  I’m always cleaning or organizing when I’m there.  And when there is clutter in my home (I do live with two boys!) I can’t fully relax.  So today while sitting at church listening to the sermon and my mind wandering off, I felt something say,  that this is how my mind is right now…full of clutter.

I can’t seem to think clearly lately.  And I have had an anxious spirit for awhile now.   There is so much in my brain vying  for attention.  Most of it is important stuff,  work, children, relationship issues and there is always that money thing.  But as I sat there I knew God was trying to get my attention by telling me that it’s cluttering up my faith and trust that He has a plan.  Just about this time Pastor John used a scripture in his sermon in 1 Peter 1:13

So think clearly and exercise self-control. Look forward to the gracious salvation that will come to you when Jesus Christ is revealed to the world.”

So think clearly.  This has been impossible for me of late.  I’m letting everything take it’s turn running me around in circles.  I’m trying to figure everything out all at once.  Instead of trusting the One that already has it figured out.  I can not exercise self control over my mind.

A friend recently told me that I have great depth.  Although I believe this is true, I can’t seem to live there right now on a consistent basis because I keep allowing my thoughts to run me.   Now, I am a thinker and I always will be and I’m ok with that.  But not when it takes over my life and makes me anxious and unable to focus.

How will I de-clutter my mind?  I don’t know.  But I know the One I will be praying to, that will help me figure it out.

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