Beauty around the corner

If Jesus gives us a task or assigns us to a difficult season, every ounce of our experience is meant for our instruction and completion if only we’ll let Him finish the work. I fear, however, that we are so attention-deficit that we settle for bearable when beauty is just around the corner.”
— Beth Moore

It was just a few minutes ago I thought to myself that I just needed to learn to just grin and bear it. This life season that I’m in. I was about to pray for something good to happen, but stopped myself with -“take what God gives you, Sonya”-.  It was like something deep inside spoke and said “you don’t have to  settle for just getting through, it’s okay to ask God for something good, a blessing, but if it doesn’t come just keep faithful, keep believing in good things.”

This is hard for me, believing in good things happening.  I know I serve a God of goodness, but it seems to stop somewhere around MY heart and the things I desire.  I can’t seem to get to the place where I believe it for me.   It’s not that I haven’t seen goodness in my life, but I have also seen much heartache and much pain and in my human fraility it far out weighs the good.  I have desires.  Desires that a friend said came from God, but when year after year they don’t come to pass I start to wonder if this desire is wrong and that’s when the attitute of just grin and bear it, take what God gives you, don’t ask for them anymore, comes from. 

I read the above quote while doing a random search on Beth Moore just 20 minutes or so after the above mentioned thoughts and I know it’s God’s way of confirming what I had already had the Holy Spirit speak to me.

I pray for me to learn to change the attitude, to erase the stronghold of disbelief in thinking that asking for blessings is a wrong and unchristian way of living.  The blessing I was about to pray for before I stopped with the “take what God gives you” thought?  That on my birthday that is only a month away, something great would happen, some kind of pure joy blessing, something that would rock my world would happen.  If as I type this post, my mind is saying how selfish, how sad, it’s only a birthday.  So I will pray, for God to teach me to expect goodness, to see life as something to not just bear, but to wait in expection for beauty that is just around the corner.

“You open Your hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing.” Psalm 145:16