I know, that I know, that I know

A couple weeks ago my pastor Paul used a phrase to describe some truths that he was sure about.  He said I know, that I know, that I know…..at least that’s how I remember it.  It started me thinking, what do I know, that Iknow, that I know?  What truths do I have that I can use that phrase on.  I would think of something but only to stop and say…..uhhh, nope can’t say it on that.  It’s kinda bothered me that I hadn’t found anything that I could truly say that to.

Until today.  Today I got my I know, that I know, that I know.  I know, that I know, that I know, I am not the woman I was just a couple years ago.  You know how I got my ephinay?  I got it because right now I feel stuck, I feel useless to God’s kingdom,  I feel depressed, I feel that I haven’t changed a bit, I feel that I should have more faith than I do, more belief than I do.  In the midst of feeling this an inner voice from deep within said…”you know that’s not true”.   It was a spirit telling me despite feeling stuck and useless at this moment that, I know, that I know, that I know I am a changed person from who I used to be.  I have a lot of “knows”.  I know that I let my emotions control me at times.  I know that I lack faith at times and belief most of the time.  I know that I fear the future at times.  But nothing beats knowing that those moments don’t define what I truly know.

I know, that I know, that I know I am a different and stronger woman I was just a couple of years ago.